Strange thing is, throughout it all my kids never complained. My youngest was born into the dysfunction, my oldest however, remembers the “Good times”. He’s seen the better days and the absolutely horrible ones. Times when our utilities were continuously being cut off because I couldn’t afford to pay them and buy food as well. Times where he couldn’t go to school because the car that was outside the night before, had now magically disappeared and all that was left was an empty parking space. He’s had to endure watching me go from being in perfect health one day, to almost dying twice and ending up in the Intensive Care Unit (ICU) while trying to bring his sister into the world. My children have seen me be knocked down by life repeatedly from every side, but I was never knocked out!
While going through those times I had moments where I thought, ” I might not make it through this and if I do I’m gonna be bruised and scarred”. Believe it or not, I’m thankful for having to experience those super lean years. Those times taught me that, sometimes in life things just happen. That at the end of the day, material things are truly just that…THINGS. And when we get that final call and we go to meet our maker, it doesn’t matter what we have and what we don’t have because either way, we can’t take it with us.
One of my biggest take aways from those trying times, was relearning how not to bring yesterday’s woes into today, because today will definitely come with its own set of problems. Throughout life difficult times will come and go, for me the times where all we had was each other to cling too, those precious moments that were birthed out of the most difficult of times, are the moments that will forever outshine the others. ~ Tashauna